Ice skating

I am all bruised from skating. At the end I've lost count how many times I've fell because I have someone saying, faster faster, lean forward, more on one leg more on on leg!!!!!

Many people, even the crew there said my bf is a jerk, allowing me to fall byself.

I felt like saying to the crew, without him, i would still be holding the the side rails like those pathetic people. I stopped holding to the side like 5 mins after i entered because he pushes me to be strong. I started gliding in my second session because he pushes me to be brave.

I think caring for someone does not mean treating them like a baby, fearing them that they might get hurt all the time. Caring for someone can also mean wanting for them to be stronger while bearing the guilt of being pushy and cruel.

Dating him exposes me to:
- Russian culture -- fearlessness pushes growth
- Marine culture -- that results could only be yielded by discipline.

I dont know if he is really as good as I had described, but for sure I know I have became more resilient and disciplined.

Stop looking at the phone, lets talk.

And you face that awkward situation where everyone puts down the phone and realise that the reason why they were looking at the phine in the first place aas because there was nothing to talk about.

Learning violin

Before u sign up for that adult course.
You will have to know that learning violin requires u to cut ALL your nails. This picture here, my nails are considered long.
So.... if u are some gelish lover, forget about violin. Learn the french horn maybe?

What i want in life

What i want in life?
I want to play all day! Do nothing and play all day!

But i am so used to turning on the professional mode when someone ask me. And i go:
I want to change the industry, change the world
I seek to inspire and be inspired
I want to spread my passion in construction and in BIM to others.
I want to keep learning and developing.

I dont even know how true are these words. Then why am i so disinterested at work?

Oh manz, life.

Sometimes i thought it would be nice to have a baby in the tummy, doing nothing, waiting for a delivery. Or have twins running around me. But that's just my hormones working.

Why does he consistantly point out twins kids and tell me they are cute? Does he want that too? 😍😍😍😍😍

Stop hormones, stop taking over my mind.

7th October

Some things in today:
Gained 2kg, decided to go on a no carb diet
Chapped lips
Skipped breakfast
Salad lunch
Debated with project manager, again.
Cancelled dinner (my friend said he forgot!!! I had to act like thats an acceptable excuse) "☺, its okay, dont worry!"

Bf talked something about comsol for his phd project to measure magnetic flux.
Want to join the #startahon and win that 2,000 prize (http://www.ideasinc.sg/)
What about a little drone that is like Quidditch and people chase it around on skates. Isnt that fun? Disinterested bf suggested wings to be sharp to cut all the players.
He wants to be there to protect me from geeks :) sounds weird but still sweet.
But i want that sgd 2,000

Practised violin. Why do i sound so squeakly. Maybe I'll google how to not sound squeakly on a violin.

Work
How do we manage typical units on a BIM model? It gets more and more complicated... so many files, so many updates.... designing a unit first before the building... are the benefits really worth it?

Is all this pre-planning all necessary? I don't even know what the consultants think.

Little monster from TCC

Cocktail drink made from chocolate and rum shaved ice.
Little funny mud monster from TCC(the coffee consieur) in Singapore

Magic potion

Every morning, my body demands the magic potion that fuels the rest of my day. That little cup of coffee with at least 2 shots of espresso.

When has this little addiction start to become part of my life?
So much that even if I can't get that overpriced Starbucks Latte, any other bitter tasting caffeine in a liquid form its acceptable?  *I was taking coffee from the pantry and got slightly judged because i actually accepted those low grade coffee into my mouth*

But i need them.

My body would malfunction without it.
I would fall asleep at my desk and I wont be able to poop. Falling asleep is fine, not pooping is serious shit. Literally.